Tired of the "Roller Coaster"

The last few days have been emotionally challenging for me.  I feel like today I've gotten a small "break".  

I call it "the roller coaster" effect.  When I'm feeling good, I'm on the upswing or at the top/near the crest of the ride.  When I'm not feeling good I'm on the way down from the crest or even at the bottom.  I know I'm not the only one who goes through this but at the times I'm not feeling good, I feel like I'm alone in it.  

This time around, I can tell that my most "difficult" part; the part of my ego that was created when I had my life threatened, is in the driver's seat.  I can tell because of the monologue I have in my head and what comes out of my mouth when I'm by myself or driving.  I have little to no patience and this part wants to treat everyone as if they are some kind of threat.  

While I know this isn't true, I just let this part "have its way" while I make the decision to NOT say or act out anything that this part comes up with.  The one exception is while I'm driving.😂  I allow this part to tell people to get the hell out of my way or get off their phones and drive... I let myself be authentic in the moment.  

The rest of the time, I don't really FEEL like I'm making a conscious choice to be congenial, it feels like it's effortless... like I know who I choose to be and I just BE that person.  If my patience is tried, I can be very short and blunt but still maintain my cool.  I just let people know from my attitude that I'm not going to put up with any BS.

Basically, I feel like I need to isolate myself because of how I feel.  Part of it is that I just don't want to put up with people and their BS and also, part of me is afraid that I will put people "off" which is not my desire. 

I KNOW that the Sun is sending us very powerful energy right now as I keep track of what the Sun is doing through Stefan Burns on YT.  IMO, he is the best Geophysicist out there.  He's very thorough and is very knowledgeable.  It's now constant stream of high frequency Love energy is literally forcing out all of the lower frequencies out of us!😲

Still, knowing that, does not make the ride any easier.  It does, however, give me hope that the end is near.  This round, for me, is not as bad as it has been in the past.  With that, I know I'm nearing the end of this "roller coaster" ride!

I share what I'm going through to help you see that, if you are going through what I'm going through, that you're not the only one and it DOES get better.  Stick with it and see it through and do you best to be your best version even if you don't really feel like your best version.💖

 

Light language

Recently I listened to a light language session given by Zeenat Lakdawala, a woman from India that offers many different kinds of sessions.  I bought a series of session for inflammation and I was amazed at the results.  I have used many of her sessions but this time, the results were very tangible!  

I have written about living with a couple and we all share the kitchen.  Over the years, members of this household (including air bnb guests) have slowly become lazy in cleaning up; leaving dishes in the sink and food/clutter on the counters.  

For quite a while now, I have been cleaning up after everyone because I have a higher standard of clean than the rest of them.  I've also done it with a certain degree of resentment.  

Also, every morning while I'm on the internet and watching videos about what's going on "out there", I would sweat under my arms profusely.  I know this to be fear.

After just one session (week 1) of the light language for inflammation, the very next day, I woke up without these fears.  I hadn't even realized that the reason I was cleaning up after everyone was because I was afraid that it would get worse and that it wouldn't get done.  

All of that has disappeared and that was almost 2 weeks ago!  It has stuck and I'm so happy about that!  

I was also losing my patience while driving and even though I was aware of it, I could not help myself.  

Even my patience had come back!  It feels so good to have my patience back and to feel confident that I don't have to "do" for everyone else.  

I have been able to let go of that need to clean up for everyone and it's getting done!  Not always when I think it should be done but it's getting done.

I wasn't aware that this was fear because I wasn't feeling it!  It wasn't until I listened to the session that I became aware of the fear I no longer had.

Light language is a series of sounds with no meaning.  Instead they are heard by the mind/body and they change consciousness in a positive way; aiding in "letting go."  I highly recommend listening to what Zeenat offers.

Here is a description of the series for inflammation with the link to sign up.

Inflammation is more than a physical condition. It’s a multi-layered expression of imbalance that impacts the body, mind, and energy system. While the body uses inflammation as a natural defence mechanism, when it becomes chronic, it stops being a protective response and turns into a holding pattern. Chronic inflammation, then, is not simply the body reacting — it’s the body remembering. And to truly heal it, we must meet it on all levels. The body stores unprocessed emotions, suppressed trauma, and energetic overload. This buildup doesn't just fade — it settles into the tissues, organs, and nervous system, becoming a quiet yet persistent imprint. Over time, this unresolved energy can manifest as chronic pain, digestive distress, autoimmune conditions, or fatigue. The discomfort continues, and true healing remains just out of reach, cycling over and over again. Introducing the Light Language Alchemical Inflammation Release (AIR) — a transformative series to guide you through healing inflammation from the inside out. Whether you are dealing with chronic pain, digestive issues, fatigue, or feeling emotionally drained, this three-part series offers a pathway to restore balance and vitality on all levels: physical, emotional, and energetic.
Series Benefits
The AIR Series is an energetic surgery as each session is a multi-layered experience to provide relief, recalibration and remembrance. A return to your original rhythm. The series works directly to the heart for those who have been called to work, as it will :
Liberate Your Body from Invisible Weight: Release inflammation held in your tissues and energy field. Reclaim vitality as your body begins to feel lighter, freer, and more in flow with life. Clear the Emotional Static that Keeps You Spinning: Transmute hidden grief, guilt, and anger stored in the cells. Experience emotional not detachment, but peace where old patterns lose their charge.
Restore Harmony with Your Higher Self: Dissolve energetic congestion that clouds clarity. Strengthen your soul connection and inner truth. Unlock Energy for What You’re Meant to Do Next: As inflammation heals, your system recalibrates, energy that was locked in pain becomes available for creation, expression, and expansion with ease and flow.
Step into the Frequency Where Healing Meets Abundance: as you recalibrate, the system clears and aligns naturally with clarity, receptivity, and abundance rooted in soul integrity.
Your Journey Through the AIR Series
Week 1: Clearing Physical Inflammation & Cellular Density Address the cellular memory of stress, fatigue, and stagnation - Detoxifying stored energetic residue - Reduce symptoms - pain, fatigue, bloating, skin issues - Activate immune system’s natural rhythm - Create space to begin a new phase of healing - Establish somatic safety for deeper emotional work
Week 2: Releasing Emotional Imprints & Trauma Memory Heal dense imprints that kindle inflammation and soul disconnection. - Release unresolved emotional loops             - Harmonise heart and gut (emotional digestion) - Clear ancestral & inherited burden.               - Shift from reactive to inner neutrality - Reset emotional boundaries
Week 3: Energetic Realignment & DNA Activation We move beyond clearing to activating — reclaiming your innate light, intuitive wisdom, and vibrational integrity.
- Deeper activation of dormant DNA and light body upgrades - Experience soul connection and intuitive recalibration - Clearing blocks around purpose, alignment, and higher guidance - Anchoring frequencies of abundance, receptivity, and flow -Sealing the healing process with crystalline light codes
Series Details
Each session is conducted Live via InstantTeleseminar. Replays are available immediately and carry the complete energetic transmission. Date - April 24, May 1 and 8, 2025 - Thursday Time: 07:00 PM IST (India). To map the date and time for your respective country, please refer to http://www.thetimezoneconverter.com. Call Duration - 45 to 60 minutes Energy Exchange: - $207 | ₹17007 (Two payment options available) Paypal -https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/SoulSearchLife In case the link is not opening, please type or paste on your web/internet browser - https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/SoulSearchLife Please Note Do not respond to this email if you have already registered for the call I will share the link soon! YES TO MORE RECEIVING & YES TO MORE HEALING! Many Blessings! Zeenat