Tired of the "Roller Coaster"

The last few days have been emotionally challenging for me.  I feel like today I've gotten a small "break".  

I call it "the roller coaster" effect.  When I'm feeling good, I'm on the upswing or at the top/near the crest of the ride.  When I'm not feeling good I'm on the way down from the crest or even at the bottom.  I know I'm not the only one who goes through this but at the times I'm not feeling good, I feel like I'm alone in it.  

This time around, I can tell that my most "difficult" part; the part of my ego that was created when I had my life threatened, is in the driver's seat.  I can tell because of the monologue I have in my head and what comes out of my mouth when I'm by myself or driving.  I have little to no patience and this part wants to treat everyone as if they are some kind of threat.  

While I know this isn't true, I just let this part "have its way" while I make the decision to NOT say or act out anything that this part comes up with.  The one exception is while I'm driving.😂  I allow this part to tell people to get the hell out of my way or get off their phones and drive... I let myself be authentic in the moment.  

The rest of the time, I don't really FEEL like I'm making a conscious choice to be congenial, it feels like it's effortless... like I know who I choose to be and I just BE that person.  If my patience is tried, I can be very short and blunt but still maintain my cool.  I just let people know from my attitude that I'm not going to put up with any BS.

Basically, I feel like I need to isolate myself because of how I feel.  Part of it is that I just don't want to put up with people and their BS and also, part of me is afraid that I will put people "off" which is not my desire. 

I KNOW that the Sun is sending us very powerful energy right now as I keep track of what the Sun is doing through Stefan Burns on YT.  IMO, he is the best Geophysicist out there.  He's very thorough and is very knowledgeable.  It's now constant stream of high frequency Love energy is literally forcing out all of the lower frequencies out of us!😲

Still, knowing that, does not make the ride any easier.  It does, however, give me hope that the end is near.  This round, for me, is not as bad as it has been in the past.  With that, I know I'm nearing the end of this "roller coaster" ride!

I share what I'm going through to help you see that, if you are going through what I'm going through, that you're not the only one and it DOES get better.  Stick with it and see it through and do you best to be your best version even if you don't really feel like your best version.💖