How ARE You... REALLY?

I never really know who is reading my blog.  I just know that I have people from all over the world that have read this blog and where ever you are, I want you to know that when the shit hits the fan in a BIG way, you aren't alone.  We are NEVER (really) alone.  We have guides with us all the time in the etheric realm waiting for us to ask for help.  

If you decide you are going to trust that is true and you ask, be open to receiving your guidance as it may come in unexpected ways.

I am also here as a guide.  Remember, NO ONE BUT YOU can save YOU.  What that means in a nutshell is that that you are saving yourself from believing all that you think.  The mind is a tool, not a "know it all" construct.  

Being in the moment is where the magic of conscious creation happens.  That means you have control over your mind to STAY in the present moment so that you are not whining over the past or worried about the future.  

If you are to create the world that you want, you must let worry go and all the self defeating thoughts that go with it!  Worry is creating a future you DO NOT WANT.  

There is nothing wrong with that, it will just be the lesson first, then you will get what you want, although, if you are not CLEAR about what you want, it may not look like you thought it would.  You will always get what you NEED in the moment, not necessarily what you wanted; if the ego was using the mind.  Let your HEART tell you what you want.  Your heart is your connection to your Divine Self.  

It's coming... mass awakening in a BIG way.  It doesn't have to be traumatic but I have a feeling it will be for many people.  

The future we are creating is one of responsibility.  Being able to respond to our environment with Love, not rejection or hate.  

Our new future will not be for the faint of heart meaning it won't be for all the victims out there who think their way out of being "the victim" is for everyone else to take a knee for them and change who they are so "the victim" can feel better.  

Taking responsibility for how you feel is empowering!  And it's the only way to save yourself from the pain you have endured.  Understanding the pain of the one who abused you and having compassion for them is the start of doing the same for yourself.  It's NOT condoning what happened.  It's using the TRUE YOU to FEEL, UNDERSTAND and ACCEPT yourself and "the other".  The "other" is only there as a reflection of yourself so you can address what is there and move beyond it.  

Transition is happening.  Please do not hesitate to reach out to me through email if you need me to listen or to give you some guidance.  Our roles are changing in the movie.  We are all here to help each other with what we can.  I can't promise I'll have what you need but if your heart is telling you to reach out to another for help, I am here.

I don't have to know you to Love you.  We are all just different faces of our Source of being, of the energy We Are.  We Are One.

If you do contact me, be patient while you wait for a response.  I do NOT use my phone for emails. 😊 

Back a Few Steps💔

It's been a few weeks now since I've returned from my trip and I can feel my vibrational frequency had dropped.  I've had some major triggers happen over the last week during my dog sit.  

I know my triggers are connected to beliefs I have and then I make it worse with my thoughts about what is going on and I have to say... I always feel like I'm doing my best to control my self, however, it's SO tiring to go through this.  I'm DONE with this!  At least I want to be.  I often wonder how long this will continue.  When will I be DONE with my inner work?

It seems like every time I go through this now, the contrast is so acute to the "on top of the world" feeling I had just a few short weeks ago.  I don't like the yo-yo effect I'm going through.  I find it VERY difficult to raise my frequency on my own sometimes.  Especially when I get bad news...💔

 

Yesterday I got a call that I have been waiting for for MONTHS about my Mom.  Basically, if I tell her what the Chiropractor told me about the condition of her spine and cord, she could stop progressing and never walk again.  Over two decades of sitting, hunched over in her bed has taken its toll on her spine.  

I had a realization for myself about why I feel the way I do given this is HER body and not mine, it's HER life and not mine and both are HERS to do what she pleases.  

It's been a difficult road with my Mom since last September when she fell out of bed for seemingly no reason.  Over the last 8 months she has been through 4 hospitals and 2 rehab facilities, I've lived with (them) to help take care of my Mom until she kicked me out.😆 (I was all too happy to leave) We had to deal with COVID bullshit as well (still are) and now, I have no idea what to tell her or what to do.

I realized that I've been trying to "save" my Mom.  I don't know why it's taken me so long to "figure this out"... lmao I think because I'm very opposed to how my Mom wants to live her life.

I think at this point, it doesn't make any sense to tell my Mom what I was told about how bad her spine really is.  She's happy with her progress and I think telling her would not be helpful.  I know her too well and how she could end up in another depression if she knew.  Besides, people have come back from worse situations and I want to give her every chance she's got to at least be able to stand up again.

I think some of my issue with this also is that I'm afraid of what I don't know which is kind of silly in a way but it's what I don't know about how this situation is going to affect me and what I want is what I'm unclear about; how long I will have to keep going up there to help out, if I'll end up having to go through all of my Mom's personal stuff (unless she can do it herself) and how much it's going to interfere with what I want to do.

I never thought I'd be going through this and I have to wonder if this is the situation that I saw on the beach in Kihei back in 2013.  What might I discover going through this with my Mom...?

It feels good to be honest about it and all I can do is keep plugging along