I want to be DONE!

I dreamt of him for the first time in months last night.  I watched one of his movies last night.  

I have heard some rather disturbing news that I hope is not true... he is an actor (now) that I know from a past life in Atlantis that I have confirmation of from multiple sources.  He is on a list of celebrities that have been "taken out" by the white hats as "satanists".  I have a hard time believing it because of our connection and who he has been as well as how he is seen in Hollywood as one of the "nicest" people there.  

I was overwhelmed with sadness when I woke up... I was still dreaming lucidly when I became aware of being back in my body.  The last thing I remember was looking directly into his right eye with so much love for him and being aware that he accepted my love...

I think I'm upset (if it's true he's gone from the physical realm) because it means I'll never get to meet him here in the flesh.  I am aware that we still have work together.  I guess that means it will be just energetically?  I wonder if he will take another physical body once we finish out this particular cycle ascending into the 5th density of physical reality. (OK...🙄 this part of the post is related to the one titled "To Be or Not To Be... lol"  If you're wondering who this is... it's Keanu Reeves)

The other thing is that I found out yesterday that my son's father got that fucking shot!  I KNEW he was deceiving me about something and he confirmed that I actually knew over a month ago intuitively when I was asking myself what I was being deceived about.  It makes me so sad because I've heard so many things about how this "shot" is affecting people as well as that the white hats have had a hand in making the "shot" inert.  I don't know what to believe!  I have not taken the time to sort out what the truth is with all of it.  I'm sad for my son if he ends up losing his Dad over this.  

While I understand WHY he did it (making $$ over his own health) I'm still devastated.  I'm astonished at how much it's affecting me.  He is like family even though I have absolutely NO desire to be with him again.  He is the ONE person here, still in Boulder, that knows me better than anyone of my friends because we've known each other nearly 27 years!  That's hard to let go of.  I can tell him most anything and not give a shit what he thinks.  I can be cold, hard honest with him... I'm talking about tough love here; the kind of honesty that people don't necessarily WANT to hear but NEED to hear.

This is SO HARD!!!  I've been though moments where all I wanted to do was to go HOME (previous Star system) and I got through it and now I'm there again...

I don't hate people, however, I am so DONE with their ignorant BULLSHIT!! Their weak, spineless attitudes that keep them trapped in fear, ignorance and COMPLIANCE!  I feel like I'm living in two different worlds... I have one foot in 5D where I GET what's going on and WHY and then I still have to function in 3D where there are so many asleep sheep.  WTF!

I want (need) to break through the veil... I want (need) to remember who I REALLY AM.... I want to FEEL what it feels like to be home again (in the God Head).  

I'm so weary... to emotionally tired... and DONE.  I have so few people that I can REALLY talk to... I want my tribe back.  They are NOT here in Boulder.  Boulder got taken over by more spineless, ignorant people with $$ who think that moving to where the "grass is greener" will make it all better instead of taking their power back to change what needs to change where they were... (California)  We are overrun with people from Cali, NY and Texas.  

I can't blame people for wanting to leave.  Cali and NY are Democrat SHITHOLES!  But NOTHING will change until the people grow a FUCKING spine and stand up for their rights... and that's a laugh because clearly, they don't even know what they are... they're so conditioned to give in a little here and a little there... they are the frogs in the pot about to come to a boil... they are the sheep going over the cliff with the rest of the herd!  

I need a fucking BREAK!😠💪😣💔

My thoughts on Racism

This is going to be short because I find it utterly ridiculous that people even make an issue out of this!

In my experience, the color of our skin makes no difference in who we are at a Core level.  We are not our bodies and to focus on the color of our skin means to detract from the fact that we are Spiritual Beings PRETENDING to be Human.

ALL LIVES MATTER!  Not just "Black Lives" because we ALL belong to the HUMAN Race first.  The color of our skin is secondary.  People don't even realize the separatist statement they are using by saying, "Black Lives Matter".

To me, all the different skin colors represent the beautiful rainbow of people in Unity that we have on our planet that create a beautiful Mandala as we are scattered around the globe.

Skin color is also representative of the area of the globe we're from but in no way does it give any credence to one color being better than another just because you come from a certain country or area of the Earth.  That's purely an ego trip! 😜LMFAO!

It doesn't help that the MSM PROMOTES racism and one color being better over another.  I think the "white privilege" and "white supremacy" narratives fit in there as well.

In order to unite, the ignorant ones will need to have an "ah ha" moment of personal revelation in order to come to the conclusion that one "race" is NOT better over another and that we are all Human first.😉💗💑

 

What matters most is how we treat each other... not what part of the globe we come from.  There are as many "blends" of personality as shades of color of our skin that determine how people are going to interact with each other as well as how well we can settle our perceived "differences".  

 

I realize that BLM has come about as a resistance to the suppression that this particular group has experienced and it IS something that has happened over time. 

 

Margaret Sanger (the founder of Planned Parenthood) started this organization in an effort to ELIMINATE the Black people as they were thought to be inferior.  

 

There have been many movements against ALL colors... even White people but I can tell you, from the research I've done, that EVERY color of people have had slaves... Blacks had Black slaves BEFORE Whites as well as Native Americans and Whites have enslaved their own color as well. 

 

In order to understand this phenomenon, you have to go back many centuries to fully understand the bigger picture here.  

 

Also, not all Black people feel suppressed!  There is so much that goes into this subject, it's too big for this blog post! 

What's more important is letting go of the resistance to it and finding your own path that supports who you are as a Spiritual Being and finding your confidence to BE yourself no matter what others think of you.  There are going to be "others", for the time being, that will find things that are different about "others" in order to separate themselves and attempt to "elevate" themselves so that THEY can feel better about themselves given what they believe about themselves.  It's only in believing what we are told by another that we suppress ourselves because if you don't believe it, you're not succumbing to those false beliefs.  It only matters what we think of ourselves.  

 

What we believe about ourselves gets reflected back to us from "the other".  So if you find yourself getting triggered by what someone else says about you then you are unaware that you agree with it, however, it is also NOT the Truth.  We need to examine what we believe about ourselves and choose thoughts that feel better because those thoughts that feel good are the ones aligned with the Truth.

 

The main reason skin color has been used as way of suppressing people is because it's a tool of the "elitists" to divide and conquer people given that most people have the belief that we are just our bodies.

 

Racism (as well as all the other "isms") havs been used as a tool of separation to divide and conquer by certain groups.  This causes people to fight each other and makes it easier to manipulate us into fear... that because you're a "different color" or religion or gender or (whatever, fill in the blank) that I must fear you.  That allows these hidden elitists to further their own agenda to "take over".  I mean, come on!  That has been going on FOREVER!!!  Even on a larger scale with wars over our PLANET!  It's nothing new really.  Stop buying into it!  And to do that you have to change how you see YOURSELF!😀 

 

See yourself and KNOW yourself as the Divine Light being of Love that you are because THAT IS the TRUTH!