Karma

I have been wanting to write about this for a long time.  We have been taught that Karma means retribution or payback or something similar, which has kept us in a belief that supports us being unworthy, powerless and victims of life.  

I found a video from Bashar that fully explains what Karma REALLY is and I hope you will listen to it.  I trust Bashar/Darryl Anka without doubt.  The information I have received over the years from Bashar has cemented my trust in Darryl Anka, who channels Bashar (for 40 years now!) Bashar has a unique way of explaining concepts by breaking it down into understandable bits.

If we are to heal ourselves, (no one else heals us) then we must take responsibility for what we believe and change those beliefs (thoughts that we continue to think) that do not resonate or feel good so that we have a better foundation of knowledge to utilize in our journey back to ourselves and back to wholeness.

I also highly recommend the channel on YouTube that this is from. 

Open Letter of Forgiveness to those on "the dark path"

The first thing you should know, to those of you reading this, that no matter what path you're on (dark or light), I LOVE YOU!  Let me explain how that can be.

I Love EVERYONE because I KNOW and FEEL without a doubt the Oneness that IS.  That is to say, I have an inner/over/understanding that ALL is Source Energy, that we are ALL from the same Source without exception to the inclusion of Earth herself and ALL of her inhabitants and beyond.

That said, I also have a broader/expanded view of our existence here on Gaia to further inner/over/understand the "bigger picture" if you will of why we are here; the purpose of our Collective AND individual experiences here in this TEMPORARY reality.

I want you to know that I understand the role of the Ones who have chosen the "dark path"; to be in stark contrast to the "lighter path" so that the choice can be made to choose what FEELS best on both the individual and collective level.  

There is no good/bad or right/wrong about it!  We are simply following the rules of this Uni-verse in order to "play the game" if you will.

We are at the precipice of this choice given the disclosure of information that is about to come out what "the dark ones" have been up to.

There are MANY who already know what has been going on and (you) know this!  This is what (you) are afraid of.  It's understandable.  

However, MOST do not know and the time has come for all of you on this "dark path" to make your own choice before this disclosure happens.

Because I have had this knowing for many years now, I have processed all of the emotions related to having this information and the understanding I have of "the bigger picture" is what prompts me to follow through with Forgiveness.  Truly!💖

However, I cannot speak for the ones ABOUT to find out!  They will be outraged, angry, sad, mortified and will want heads to roll... literally!  😢  That is also understandable.

This "disclosure" is inevitable!  It MUST happen for this ascension process in vibration to complete itself.  We MUST COLLECTIVELY accept the Truth of what it REALLY means to BE on this "dark path".  You, who have chosen this path, are the Beings of Light that LOVED THE REST OF US SO MUCH that you chose this most difficult role; to BE that contrast in duality.  You, like the rest of us, have just forgotten in order to play this "game".  I am SO GRATEFUL to ALL who have done this because I know I wouldn't have wanted to do this (lol) and ironically, I have, in other lifetimes/timelines, been that dark being.  However, I AM THE ONE who is stepping up to be the example for others to show that I DO accept that Truth and hold the highest regard (in spiritual terms) for those on this "dark path" and forgive them for their errs in judgment/discernment and the atrocities they have had to commit to be that contrast!

Now, to go a little deeper here... there is other information that will not come out not immediately but that I am still aware of.  It is about the being(s) that are behind all of this... nastiness.  To eliminate unnecessary explanation, I invite you to watch this video from someone I have found to be quite credible given the information he puts out there. 

Now, I know what you could be thinking... this isn't TRUE!  But what if it is true?  What would that mean for those on this dark path?  It would mean you have a choice.  You, so far, have chosen to stay with the playbook feeling compelled into keeping to the "playbook" for appearances and the slight hope that maybe it's not true and that somehow you can pull off this "dark agenda".  

Well, I can assure you, per vibration alone (and you know this) this ascension IS HAPPENING!  There is NO stopping it; it is already collectively decided!

I alert you to another choice:  Surrender!  Surrender to that spark of Divine Light that YOU ARE!  It's never to late to change your mind.  The end of this "dark path" is coming, you also know this.  That end can happen a multitude of ways.  It can mean your arrest, prosecution and/or your incarceration/death by capitol punishment or suicide. (which, while it would be appropriate karma in terms of this physical reality given the atrocities committed but that I don't agree with) OR, you can realize on your own that the possibility does exist that you can be forgiven because I HAVE DONE IT!  AND you must do it for yourselves.

So, if there is ANY doubt in your mind about the path you have chosen and you wish to make another choice that feels better, NOW would be the time to take the leap of faith that will be needed to TRUST that your fellow Beings in Light are ready to embrace you... to accept you in the truth of your role... to Love you as they do themselves and as I do, because, I would rather see as many of you come with us to the next "level" if you will, than spend another few cycles starting over because of stubborn egocentricity or because you take yourself out of the game to escape.  THERE IS NO ESCAPE and there is no need to fear what you will inevitably face... the Truth of your own choice and the karma you have to repay to bring balance back into being.  It won't be as bad as you think.  WHATEVER your choice ends up being, you will either start over from scratch or you will ascend with the collective.  The Dark Agenda will NOT succeed!

I leave you now in Peace, Love and with the knowledge of the choice you have before you.  It is yours alone.💖💪👪🙏  Godspeed to you!

Frustration!

I have this "friend" and I put friend in "" because even though I've known this person for 18 years, she has never made it into my "inner circle" of friends.  Maybe on a spiritual level she could be but here, she is a source of frustration and annoyance! lol

Her behavior is what annoys me and recently, her ego has become VERY apparent in her assumptions of what she believes is going on inside MY head when I know she CAN'T know what is in my head unless she became a mindreader overnight and that she is just projecting what is unconscious in her own!  

This post will serve as much as a vent for my frustrations as it will to pick apart my own thought process around (this person) and why she is in my life and how she is serving me through triggering my frustration and annoyance.

If I use the knowledge I have and look at myself and ask, what am I frustrated about, I get that I'm frustrated at how long my own process of illumination is taking and I'm annoyed at my own annoyance of Mary. (that's not her real name, but that's what I'll call her here) I don't want to be annoyed with her.  I want to have compassion for her.  

From where I sit and with all the work I've done on myself, I can see that she has little if any self awareness.  She is not aware that her need to be "right" is an indication that she is coming from her ego. 

Mary has had some spiritual experiences that may or may not have happened.  If they did, it appears that her ego is trying to take responsibility for these experiences when it was her core self that had these experiences and her ego was only witness to them. 

She was in a spiritual study group that is led by my employer and while I may not agree with everything that was discussed, she left the group after she got in a major disagreement with my employer over the material of the Spiritist Book that was being covered.  Mary somehow seems to think that because she has had these experiences, that now she "knows it all" and is beyond any kind of teaching.  EGO!!!

It is also possible that because she continues to deny MY experiential wisdom as if I know NOTHING, that she is making up her experiences as a way to "fit in" with the spiritual community that we live in.  I don't know for sure, however, her "making me wrong" about what I KNOW to be true is an indicator that she could be lying; applying my findings of what comes out of our mouth is about US especially when we are talking about someone else.  She is WRONG in her assumptions of what she thinks she knows.

Mary is also dyslexic.  This outward manifestation is an inner indicator of just how backwards she sees things and this leads to her insistence that her view is the truth and everyones else's knowledge is false based on the so-called spiritual experiences she says she has had.  This is how I interpret what is going on with her per my experience of her and her apparent disregard of what I DO KNOW from experience.  (even after I tell her how I know!)

OK, so describing what I have gone through with Mary is the foundation for me questioning myself about why don't I have compassion for her.  Well, the first thing that comes to mind is that I haven't forgiven myself yet for my own ignorance and thinking I know the truth better than someone else.  I have not yet found compassion for myself in this regard.  I can honestly say that I still go through the latter, however, it comes from a place of experience and then the question comes up of: "Is my experience of things more valid than someone else's experience of the same thing?".  I'd have to say no and that our interpretation of said experience is what is going to be different depending on where we are coming from; ego or core Self.  If it's interpreted through the ego, there is a good chance that it will be misinterpreted completely and if ego is kept out of the way of the experience then the core Self will not have to interpret what happened but will KNOW without doubt what the experience was about.  That is rare in my opinion and coming from my own experience in looking back at my interpretation of my own dreams and random things that have happened.  It's only in hind sight that I clearly see what something was about.  There have been rare moments where I knew in the moment what my experience was about.

Then there is the frustration... I am frustrated on many levels with different things.  I'm frustrated with myself, other people, how long this ascension process is taking, how long it's taking "others" to "get it" and awaken.  I'm frustrated with my friends and family and there is actually a little pain there as well at being thought of as "crazy" in my belief of "conspiracy theories" and how I choose to live and do things.  I know in time, I will be vindicated!  lol  I won't say, "I told you so." to anyone but I will be thinking it!  lmao  Then people will realize that I wasn't so "crazy" after all.  haha

Then there is the tiredness.  I'm exhausted emotionally dealing with people.  Not always; it's only when I let the negative expressions like frustration etc get their way and take hold that I get exhausted.  I'm not always able to laugh at every situation especially when it affects me personally like having someone in my life like Mary...  that is why, at the moment, she is my greatest teacher.  When I am finally able to sit down with myself and look at myself with compassion and forgive what is there will she either disappear from my life or I will be able to see her with compassionate eyes and realize that it's her ignorance of spiritual study and her lack of self awareness that, in my opinion is her major stumbling block to a better understanding of her self and the absolute Truth of us as Spiritual Beings.

A Reminder...

I know that we all have our own beliefs but this is not just a belief and a belief is just a thought you continue to think. This is something I know and I know because it is my experience.  

We are all Divine and One with each other and our Primary Source. Source has many labels...God, Allah, All That Is, etc. etc. It doesn't matter what the label is, it is all the same and in the end, the truth shall be known as only the truth will be left standing when all else that is erroneous will fall away.

I can remember thinking a long time ago that God didn't exist because of all of the pain I went through and all of the pain that existed for others as well. That thought was based on the belief that (God) was in charge of everything and that we were just pawns in an immense game; that we had no control over what happened in the world. I spent a short time as an atheist, angry with (God) that he didn't do anything about all the "bad" people in the world and what they did. 

I don't remember when my turning point was. I had these thoughts throughout Jr. High and High School. I remember having a conversation with my Dad sometime in High School about him being an agnostic~ someone who neither believes nor disbelieves in God. I think I decided that it would be better to neither disbelieve or believe (in God) than not at all. And that's when I became an Agnostic. My Dad to this day is still an agnostic although he does believe in a power greater than ourselves though he prefers not to label it. 

After High School I left for the Air Force and I think after I got out in 1986 that I changed my mind again and decided that there is something greater than ourselves but I was still unsure of the details. I didn't like calling it "God". "God" had a negative idea attached to it probably from going to Church with my parents when I was young until about 8 yo. I hated Church and thought it was boring and didn't agree with what they were teaching. 

My mom has always been my beacon and my source for most of the foundation of information that I share. I know she was part of not most of the reason I started on a path of self discovery. Everything she shared with me was so interesting and captivated my attention. I think I intuitively knew that there had to be more to life than what I could perceive with my 5 senses. 

I have always been empathic although I wasn't as aware of it as I am now. I didn't always trust it as I do now either. So to end a long story, I can relate to people who are atheists and who are agnostic and I have no contempt for them because as I said earlier...only the truth shall be left standing. I've been there and if it hadn't been for my Mom and my relentless pursuit of information that could help me change and become someone I loved, I would still be there. 

I used to hate who I was and that attracted people to me that reinforced that thinking. Going into the USAF was a huge turning point for me. I remember thinking to myself that no one there knew me and didn't know what I had been through. In looking back, I can see in hindsight that it was a very powerful thought I had had. It was what allowed me to start being the person I wanted to be although it didn't start without some pitfalls. 

The point is that the thoughts we think aren't always the truth. It isn't until we have an experience of something that we know the truth. Our (head)thoughts can lie to us, but experience always tells the truth. My experiences cover a lot of ground from dreams that I've had where I felt the most incredible feeling of Love I've ever had (that I have never felt anything close to in waking life) to the intuitive "hits" I get about things that are about to happen or be said to the conversations I have with my guidance. You can call me full of shit but I know in my heart that we ARE all ONE and for someone who doesn't believe that, isn't that a better thought to have rather than to believe something less?